Eddie Mars: The Ongoing Saga of a Guy with Nothing To Lose

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Nick Zegarac is a freelance writer/editor and graphics artist. He holds a Masters in Communications and an Honors B.A in Creative Lit from the University of Windsor. He is currently a freelance writer for Windsor Life Magazine and has been a contributing editor for Black Moss Press. He's also has had two screenplays under consideration in Hollywood and is a regular contributing writer for various online publications, including Subtletea and Banks of the Little Miami. Presently, he's searching for an agent to represent him. Contact Nick via email at movieman@sympatico.ca

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

ADVENTURE THE 54TH: BURNT OFFERINGS

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ADVENTURE THE 54TH:
BURNT OFFERINGS

On the morning of November 21, 1980 Las Vegas experienced a tragic blaze such as it had never known; a ravaging firestorm second only in scope and loss of life to Atlanta's Winecoff Hotel disaster of 1946. The MGM Grand - brainchild of wily Vegas financier Kirk Kerkorian - become a tinderbox, only in part due to an electrical fire started in the popular, though unoccupied, restaurant - The Deli.

What was perhaps overlooked at the time of the fire, and, certainly forgotten today, was the fact that several of the casino's more astute staff had smelled the embers and spotted a whiff or two of thin black smoke escaping from between The Deli's bolted doors well before the final inferno burst forth, spreading through the gargantuan cut glass and plastic mirrored gaming area at a rate of roughly nineteen feet per second.

In the ensuing panic and subsequent rally to extinguish the fire, no one really bothered to take into account that one of the 75 lives lost inside his posh eighteenth story suite was Bobby Valenz. A self made millionaire, Valenz' fortune was not to be found inside the bank vaults of Vegas' Fifth National when the widow Valenz arrived a scant three days after the fire to collect what she thought would be her escape funds out of the country.

Prior to his death, Bobby Valenz had made rather a bad enemy of Milford Peters; the then President of Nevada's Gaming Commission. Thereafter, he quietly incurred the wrath of the Commissioner's underground mob bosses who, despite Vegas' increasing outward display in reshaping their glittering empires of corruption into more family friendly oases, continued to operate lucratively through various unchecked loopholes that no one - least of all the Gaming Commission - seemed terribly interested in putting an end to.

But on the morning of November 21, none of this back story garnered attention from the press, who seemed more interested at pointing their fingers of blame at Kirk Kerkorian's lack in foresight. He had, after all, used less than stellar building materials to construct the lion's share of his gambling empire. PVC piping, glue, plastic tiles and wallpaper all came under scrutiny in the resulting police and fire investigation. Never mind that every other casino in Vegas was guilty of employing such cheaply manufactured accoutrements to adorn their pleasure palaces.

Never mind that the hotel's structural rating had miraculously been downgraded to that of a wood building just hours before the entire complex went up in a puff of smoke on that fateful morn.

Never mind the Kerkorian had been forewarned earlier in the week by some rival interests that he was playing hard ball with some very thuggish investors.

No, the public demanded an open and shut case - a simple snap analysis that put faulty wiring and a daft air conditioning system at the heart of matter. That's what the public wanted and that is precisely what they were fed in regurgitated sound bytes from weary survivors on the nightly news, proliferated by the reigning cultural mandarins of network news over at NBC, CBS and ABC.

Also fraudulent was the final verdict made by the fire investigators; that the blaze had been started by an electrical ground fault inside a wall soffit near The Deli's refrigeration units.

But even more glaringly ignored was the fact that Bobby Valenz had not died of carbon monoxide poisoning like the rest of the unfortunates trapped inside their hotel rooms. In fact, he had been chloroformed in his bed while lying blissfully asleep some thirty minutes before the blaze.

Shortly thereafter, Valenz was injected with a lethal dose of cyanide between his toes; quietly dressed and posed near an open vent to suggest inhalation of the toxic fumes that would soon be traveling up the air shafts and into his hotel room. Written off as just another regrettable corpse along with 74 others who had legitimately succumbed to smoke, Valenz body was quietly wheeled into the morgue.

The widow Valenz request for immediate cremation of her husband's remains put a period to the discovery of Bobby's true cause of death; cause for a noted sigh of relief from the widow until she arrived three days later at the bank to abscond with her husband's riches, only to discover that they had already been liquidated.

That the widow had probably confronted those she obviously assumed were responsible for her husband's murder became even more apparent two days after when she was discovered floating face down in a bathtub full of suds at the Valenz fashionable estate; presumably heart-stricken with grief over the loss of her beloved Bobby - whom she had never regarded as anything more than a cash cow in life - and, leaving behind a flowery suicide note that not even the widow's sister, Isabelle Travertin believed.

Retrieving the note for her own records, and to satisfy an itching curiosity, Isabelle put the paper to the test of a handwriting expert whose shop unfortunately suffered a horrendous gas explosion that very afternoon with both the letter and the expert inside - leaving little to identify either, prove or disprove Isabelle's theory; that a bizarre cover up was underway. Hence, what became of Bobby Valenz' millions was a Vegas legend that refused to die.

Over the next several years Isabelle made valiant attempts to learn the truth, but the general word from her revolving door of private investigators was always nil. It seems the money trail stopped with Valenz' son, twenty-five year old Alonzo.

Spoiled to a fault and accustomed to squiring wealthy jet setters from both sides of the fence in his own age bracket, Alonzo had chartered a boat with his then girlfriend, Carilynda . The two planned a whirlwind cruise around the Cape, but somewhere between ports their yacht sank in a violent storm. Neither the wreckage nor any bodies were ever recovered.

But even more perplexing than Alonzo's death was an incident two days before he and Carilynda left their dock in Maine. There, local authorities - on allegations made by Isabelle - made an impromptu search of Alonzo's yacht, the Maiden Piper only to discover no great quantities of wealth stashed anywhere on board.

Worse for the investigators was the fact that a quiet background check of Alonzo's private funds indicated that he had squandered all of his meager allowance - paid to him while Bobby was alive - to charter the Maiden Piper. No deposit of $140 million had been made to either Alonzo or Carilynda's accounts.

At a dead end and without probable cause, the police were forced to step aside and quietly watch as the Maiden Piper made her turn along the rocky embankment just beyond the marina, bound for open waters from which neither she nor her crew would ever return.

I think about Bobby Valenz from time to time, think about what good or evil his money is up to. Because, you see, when you substantiate a personal fortune of $140 million and dine with heads of state on a regular basis, someone at the top always notices when you're not there. Or perhaps, more to the point, they notice when your money's not around to grease a few palms.

Now, Wendell H. Bridesman; here was a separate story - one as far removed from culture as any, and, so quaintly American that it hurt. Born to Maude and Clyde Bridesman in 1955, two penniless drifters with more debt than brain power, Wendell had run away from home to join the circus at the age of eleven. What developed rapidly hereafter is the stuff of dreams, legends and liars. The unschooled urchin put his hard earned wages to work for him on a series of sound stock investments that grew almost as quickly as the gawky Bridesman did.

Quitting the circus to devote full time to 'playing' with his money, by the spring of 1980, Wendell Bridesman was Time Magazine's man of the year, a celebrated wunderkind of bottled energy with an uncanny knack for picking winners without even giving the race much consideration. Incrementally, Bridesman had taken $700.00 in 1964 and turned it into $4.7 million by 1982. During this fledgling period, there wasn't much he touched that didn't instantly turn into platinum or, at the very least, 24 karat gold.

As the 'greed is good' decade prepared to kickoff, Bridesman played fast and loose with a series of real estate investments that quadrupled his cash flow, making him Manhattan's titan of property development - second only to Donald Trump. A lawsuit in 1986 alleging that Bridesman was something of a slum lord did little to tarnish his reputation. However, if one had looked a little deeper, they would have stumbled across a little known fact; that Bridesman's development company had been instrumental in providing building materials for the old MGM Grand.

But the central curiosity herein lay not so much with Bridesman's exponential growth as a wily wheeler/dealer, but in how so much of his back story remained an enigma to the outside world. Lack of coverage was blamed on Maude and Clyde - both having died in a house fire in 1962 and therefore not around to take charge of their son's documentation for posterity. Photographically, the record of young Wendell's social development stopped somewhere just before the end of grammar school.

A graduation photo of the misshapen child with an impossible uni-brow and perpetual scowl was about the only childhood trace that Bridesman had in fact even existed; then a gap of some fifteen years and finally, the reappearance of a rather shy, modestly slimmer man about town with two eye brows and a more fully developed body, who nevertheless shunned media coverage at any and every turn.

Though he attended elegant parties, Bridesman's profile was relatively low key. Indeed, one attending these social gatherings would be hard pressed to say that they had dined with Wendell H. Bridesman or watched him bounce on a pogo stick through the open buffet, had it not been that his invitations were claimed at the front desk by a nondescript man claiming to be Wendell H. Bridesman.

But then a funny thing happened. Wendell came into his own - or perhaps he was deliberately pushed. He arrived home from a six month trip to New Zealand with an elegant cocoa skinned native girl on his arm who proudly advertised herself as Mrs. Bridesman by flashing a bauble roughly the size of the Hope Diamond on her ring finger and spending Wendell's money as though it simply fell from the sky to her liking.

In point of fact, it probably did - for upon closer inspection there were minor hiccups in Wendell's fiscal gains that suggested other avenues of investment. What these were, remained open for discussion. All that was for certain was that behind the prim laced legitimacy of Wendell's public investments there were minor pockets of hidden wealth that occasionally surfaced to help keep the spit and polish of Wendell's public life very much sparkling and alive.

These hidden investments might never have garnered attention had Ausiwaga Bridesman not come into the picture - requiring Wendell to dig deeper than he ever had into his already deep pockets to satisfy his wife's cravings for flash, bling and the good life. This blissful pillage ought to have gone on indefinitely or at least until Wendell was penniless and cast off by Ausiwaga for the much younger pool boy it was rumored she was having an affair with.

However, on November 21, 2001 Ausiwaga Bridesman lost control of her tan Mercedes off the Big Sur, plummeting to her untimely death down a rocky embankment into the sea. Publicly, Wendell played the part of the dutiful grieving widower beautifully. He wore his black respectfully until year's end and even after then, had his chauffeur regularly place a dozen white roses - Ausiwaga's favorite - on her headstone as a sign that her memory had not died with her.

Privately, however, it was rumored that he had been more than mildly relieved - an observation that continued as his political career kicked off the following Spring with a hearty endorsement from the previous mayor of San Francisco.

But now the winds of change had turned once again, and Bridesman's reputation as a solid venture capitalist, with his eye firmly on the arena of politics for personal power, seemed to overshadow whatever secrets his monies had kept safely tucked away.

I think about Wendell H. Bridesman a lot because I don't believe for a second he is who he says he is. In fact, I think he might - just might - be somebody else. I think he might be Alonzo Valenz.

None of this speculation do I plan to share as I prepare to dine with my old pal, Captain Mallory. There's no point. Besides, he might be playing for the other side.

I am acutely aware of my own apprehensions as I dress for the evening. Somewhere between the last of September and the first of the big 'O', Mother Nature had a brain fart or crawled into bed with Ol' Man Winter only to wake up the next morning with a nasty case of frost bite in all the wrong places. It's cold and barely a week before Halloween I find myself bundling up like the Pilsbury Doughboy.

"You're gettin' older," Mallory explains when I confide as much to him standing on the massive front stoop of his palatial digs on Knob Hill.

I barely recognize him, with his remaining hairs slicked into a wicked frenzy by some heavy pomade; wearing a paisley smoking jacket cut from some expensive silken cloth and sporting a pair of gaudy slippers that probably cost more than all the seven pairs of shoes I own to my name. As Mal' ushers me into a gargantuan lobby with marble tiled mosaics meticulously cut into the floor and deep cranberry drapes effortlessly clinging before cut glass windows, I get the distinct sense that I'm not in Kansas anymore. He's cleaned up, like the Wizard of Oz and just as much of a charlatan - doing his best to conceal the man behind the curtain while he preens majestically for visiting onlookers.

"Well, I never thought I'd see the day," I admit.

"Neither did I," Mal' confesses, "Actually, I almost didn't. But then I convinced our new mayor to see reason."

"Wendell took your cue?" I suggest.

"It was either a cue or a number..." Mal' admits, "You know the kind. Stamped on a nice plate hung around his neck. Sets you apart from the other inmates in the big house."

"Can't know the players without a score card," I suggest.

So, that's the game. Wendell Bridesman would rather be mayor than some fat hillbilly's wet dream. Curious though, how he gave up a private reaming for a very public one in the brawling arena of cutthroat politics. I don't envy him that. If I had to take mine, I wouldn't want the rest of the world to know about it.

Oh well, I suppose membership has its privileges; chauffeur driven limo, cushy office chair, public adoration (when they're not busy scrutinizing the hell out'a you) and that shiny hunk of gold metal strapped around the wrist - just a reminder by the hour where all the easily resurrected wreckage you contributed to over the years is buried.

I don't go further down that garden path with Mallory. After all, friendship extends only so far. And he's not the kind to give away all the candy in the store - especially if he's currently the chief stockholder at Cavity Central. Besides, he's sold a piece of his own to the Willy Wonka I'm after. It's no secret. Nobody of merit gets to be this cushy without selling off something in the process - by way of a bargaining chip sandwiched between reputation and self preservation.

In politics, the veneer and the earth you tread on are very thin. The sycophants feed for their own flavor, but the constituents chronically put you under a microscope - convinced, in the comfort of their armchairs far removed from the manure pile, that they could do better.

If there's a stink to Mal's place, I don't sense it except in the faint hint of fresh floor wax probably laid by some illegal peon earlier in the day for the benefit of tonight's visit.

Mallory takes my coat and hangs it in the a large walk in that could probably substitute for half the main living space of my current apartment.

I'm ushered into a lavishly appointed games room with mahogany paneling and vaulted ceilings. In the center of this imposing room is a large pool table with its intricately carved wooden legs supporting seventeen hundred pounds of imported Italian slate and impeccably sheathed in traditional velvety green.

"You play?" he asks me as he saunters over to a rack of cue sticks.

"Never on any green as nice as this," I admit, "But I think I can manage."

We go a few rounds - mostly in silent - every once in a while pausing for some idle banter about the weather, sports and the women he's seen but never touched since Gracie gave him the old heave-ho.

"I hear you're shackin' it up with a certain proprietor of a certain psychic shop," Mallory tells me just before sinking a clean shot in the corner pocket.

"News travels fast," I suggest.

"I had a car tail you after I left the square," Mallory explains.

"You're concern's overwhelming, dad" I placate, "Don't bother on tips with the fairer sex. As far as they go I'm the one who could give you a few pointers. Besides, I didn't know spying was in the city budget."

"There's a lot in the city budget that nobody knows about," Mallory confides, "You didn't really think we drop four hundred on toilet seats and hammers did you?"

"Don't worry about me, Father Goose," I explain, "Women may reach their sexual peak at forty, but guys pop their wad the best around eighteen. Some system. We start to move into our Ovaltine years at just around the time they start thinking about getting onto business with the grounds keeper."

Mallory smiles. He has to. At his age, a smile's all that's left.

"Know a lot about keeping up the hedges, do you?" he asks.

"Let's just say, I've done a fair bit of prunin' in my day."

"I'll bet you got some dandies," Mallory admits.

"So do you, I'll bet," I suggest as I make my shot with all the precision of a pro whose never left the competition. There are some things you never forget.

We don't talk after that, though. In fact, Mallory's fairly clothed mouth. I guess he can only concentrate on playing one game at a time.

The hands of the clock pass the hour painlessly enough. I decide to let them. Then I make a tactical move that brings the conversation back to me. I figure, this is a game I can't win on past merit alone. I need to show Mallory mine before he thinks about showing me his.

"So you know about Martinique Chezwyck," I say.

"Know her? I busted her sweet fanny for prostitution a half dozen times," Mal' explains, "Plus she's made a headline or two."

"Running true to form," I playfully suggest, "Trading one set of sheets for another."

"Oldest profession, still the most fun after all these years," Mal' admits with a twinkle in his eye.

"...and billions and billions served," I tack on for good measure.

They're all cheap shots at a reformed hooker but I decide to run with it in the hopes that some of the blood'll rush to Mal's other head, giving me the opportunity to tweak the more pragmatic of the two for some quick facts about our new mayor.

"I don't figure," Mal' admits, "You and her. Now that's a tailgating party with an unhappy ending."

"So?"

"So, it never happened. You dropped her cold on that tight little package of hers and she spent a decade pulling herself up the hard way until she finally scraped something together to buy the building she's currently occupying."

"I'm a progressive romantic at heart," I muse, going for the kill shot on the eight ball but fowling it up at the last possible minute.

"How's that?" Malory asks.

"Well, I believe a woman's place is wherever she thinks it is," I explain, "But I also like my gals to only have eyes for me. Not me and the milk man."

"So she played you?"

"Like a fiddle," I lie, "Only I finally took back my bow and went for a plucking someplace else."

"Some set up," Mallory admits.

He flubs his kill shot too, only I sense that he's taking pity on my for other things with his conciliatory sloppiness.

"Don't give me too much of an opening," I say, making my shot count this time with no mercy and total disregard for how Mal' might feel at having his player's privilege revoked.

"Yeah," he mutters, slightly miffed that I've taken advantage of his hospitality, "I forgot what a bugger you are."

"At least I'm not a cheat," I suggest.

"Nobody ever said you were," Mal' replies.

He can sense that the mood in the room has changed. I'm not here on a social call. In fact, the sight of him standing there, with the world on a string that God only know how many unlucky bastards have paid for with their honest sweat, suddenly turns the pit of my stomach. He disgusts me. I pray to God he doesn't know it.

THE END...

Not likely!
EDDIE MARS will return on Dec.18, 2009 in his next adventure.

@Nick Zegarac 2009 (all rights reserved).

Monday, September 14, 2009

ADVENTURE THE 53rd: MY LOVER'S OASIS

DISCLAIMER for the first time reader:

For those unfamiliar with the posting structure of a blog: postings appear in the order they are made by their author, not necessarily in the order that would most benefit an ongoing series such as the one you are about to read. Since the purpose of this blog is to be an ongoing thriller, simply removing the previous chapter to alleviate confusion is not an option – since no one coming to the series after the first chapter had been removed would be able to follow the story line.

Therefore, if you scroll down or visit the archives in future months, you will be able to read this continuing drama in the manner and order it was intended to be read. For this reason and purpose each subsequent adventure in the ‘Eddie Mars’ serial will be marked by a number. If you follow these numbers marked at the top of each chapter in their numeric order - eg ‘Adventure the 1st’ - you will be able to follow this continuing saga.

For those savvy to the blog world – this disclaimer may seem redundant, and for that no apology is made. This disclaimer is meant to better acquaint new readers in how the entries in this blog will be posted and how best to follow the series from this point on. And now…


Adventure the 53rd: MY LOVER’S OASIS

I stood before my judge last night,
and prayed for sentencing, swift and sure,
unbowed, I awaited to take my lumps,
for the disease was most worthy of its cure...

What a difference a year makes. I discover this almost from the moment America comes into view off the port bow, materializing from the early morning Frisco fog, looking different somehow – changed; a lot less gritty and conflicted than the shore I left behind and very much more like the inspired ideal I remembered her as a boy. Weaned on Howdy Doody and Leave It To Beaver reruns will do that to a guy. Also, drinking plenty of milk and not losing your virginity until the age of seventeen. But I digress.

After my ship docks I don’t waste any time taking a cab to the police station. On the surface, the city still looks the same. The finer points still shine, only the darker ones seem less prominent. I start to think I’m viewing the world through rose colored glasses only I haven’t had that much to drink in the ship’s lounge.

Sergeant Mallory is now Captain Mallory – a trifle heavier than I recall, a little more jovial it seems and a hell of a lot more shocked to see me propped in his doorway.

“Dear God...” he mutters between the chomp on his cigar, “...the dead has arisen.”

I suppose it’s true enough. For all intensive purposes my living memory had been sealed for the records.

“Aren’t you going to ask me how I’ve been?” I say, approaching Mallory’s desk with a certain sly drag to my walk.

Mallory takes notice.

“I can tell how you are,” he reasons, offering me a chair, “Where have you been?”

“Europe,” I say.

Better to leave the particulars to pure conjecture.

“The foreigners were rough on you I see,” Mallory replies as I slowly ease into a large leather chair facing his desk.

The captain’s office is a lot more posh than a sergeant’s; wall to wall carpeting, an imposing mahogany desk where I envision the Magna Carta being signed and a nice big window trimmed in stylish drapes to let the sun stream in.

“You’ll never know,” I admit, “I walk with the cadence of an ol’ Southern gent who recalls with a twinkle in his eye what life was like in the land of cotton before the war.”

“How do,” quips Mallory, “Get you a mint julep or alcohol rub?”

“Yeah,” I tease back, “Preferably from some southern belle frocked in her cotillion dress and cut so low down front that I can see her Mason/Dixon line when she bends over.”

“Well, glad to see you haven’t lost yer touch,” Mallory tells me.

It’s odd. He seems glad to see me only I sense that he’d rather be doing it through the plate glass window of an observation deck at the zoo.

“It’s okay,” I assure him, adjusting my back into the soft buttery comfort of that supple leather chair, “I won’t bite.”

I can tell that curiosity has taken hold of the cat by the tail. Mal’ has about a hundred questions he’d like answered only I have a keen mind and the good sense God gave a lemon not be give him anything more than a few tart replies. Keep him happy, make myself scarce and invisible. It’ll be better for both of us that way. After all, in his heart he’s still a cop walkin’ the beat. It wouldn’t do for him to be friendly with a murderer.

“Where are you staying?” Mal’ asks.

I detect a note of genuine concern. He needn’t bother. I have all the dough I need to stay in the best hotels indefinitely if I set my mind to playing the rich fop. Somehow, though, I have a hankering for more simple pleasures.

“I figure I swing by Deluca Street,” I tell Mallory.

It’s the one kernel of information that’s undeniably true. Those are my plans. But the news seems to have hit Mal’ like the cold nose of a Cocker Spaniel in his crotch before Sunday morning coffee.

“Deluca Street?!?” he exclaims with raised eyebrows.

. . .


Deluca Street is now Deluca Square: an outdoor market where starving artists and fresh farm produce share the spotlight with a bizarre blend of retro chic snake oil peddlers. The streets are now closed to anything but local foot traffic, with large decorative awnings jutting proudly into the street from most every shop lining the avenue. On the site where my apartment building used to stand is a brand new depot to pick up the red car trolley and a trattoria so damn colorful it looks like a Mexican fiesta designed by Walt Disney.

Mallory was kind enough to take me there, only nothing about the place reminds me of home. So, Stephen Leacock was right. Bastard!

“When did all this happen?” I ask Mallory, still with a note of disbelief caught between my teeth.

“Not long after your place burned to the ground,” Mallory explains. The dozers came through and flattened just about everything that couldn't walk, crawl or give head in the next district. All part of the Mayor’s urban renewal project.”

“I didn’t think McNorton had it in him,” I reason, “I mean, there were times when I used to see his car in these parts. And you and I both know he wasn’t here to soak up the local color.”

“More like get sucked by it,” Mallory concurs, “But Micky-N ain’t Mayor anymore.”

“Then who is?”

“Wendell Bridesman.”

Now there’s a name I never thought to hear in reference to public service. Wendell H. Brideman was a self made millionaire. The origins of those millions was open for debate and certainly over the years the codger was rumored to have been in deep with the mob; swimming with sharks until eventually they ate one another and only Wendell was left behind…like the grand old man of the yarn to tell the tale as though it were some forgotten chapter in the history of San Francisco.

Only, those types of influences never die. They just move on to another dark watering hole where their interests can continue to go unnoticed. But now Bridesman’s the mayor. It had to be next to impossible to hide all that prior filth in between squeaky clean manicures and glowing speeches – even if the venue had changed from back alley pubs to political arenas. Even so, there was no denying Bridesman had tapped into some good public works.

Deluca Street for one. Though I left my heart behind on the crumbling wet cobblestone of the old street, the new square is a place to lose one’s self in the bizarre quaintness of California life. I take notice of a psychic shop with its huge red neon eye flashing proudly atop a front pylon of bricks carved to look like an ancient pyramid. We’re standing at the corner now where Deluca Square intersects with a new street cut into the landscape: Marshall-Pepper.

“Mal’…” I start off, “I need your help.”

“That, I figured,” Mallory tells me, “You look like you can use all you can get. Incidentally, I knew you when and you used to get plenty without reprisals. How yah fixed these days, stud?"

I catch a glimpse of myself in the window reflection of a nearby book shop. In the pure light of day my recovery doesn’t look nearly half as complete. I’m thin and flat and my skin has the pasty pall of a wax dummy from Madame Tussaud’s. I don’t remember myself looking quite so peaked back in Montenegro. In fact, although it’s only been a year since I left this place I suddenly find myself feeling as though about nine more have passed.

"I've had about all I can take," I reason, "Now I'm ready to commit myself to the house of the Lord."

"You already look as though you've donated a couple a' kidneys to medical science," Mal says.

He's being a jerk deliberately. I'd hate him for it too, only I'm spent and tired and more tired than spent. He can go to hell inside somebody else's handbasket. Mine's full of determination to get back to nature's goodness - if only to ditch the whole damn sunshine mess right back into that burning ball of hydrogen.

Revenge isn’t going to be easy, though. Not now. I’m not ready for it. I need more time. I need to build myself back from the ground up. All in all, I suppose it’s not a bad place to start. I’m standing smack dab in the middle of my ol’ ground zero.

“You know what?” I tell Mal’ with a soft pat on his back, “I’ll be fine. I just need a little time by myself.”

“Come on, I’ll drop you,” Mallory says.

"Where?" I reason, "On my head?"

"Would it help if I did?"

He knows damn well that it wouldn't.

Only somehow I feel as though I’ve been dropped – hard and from a great distance.

“No,” I quietly reply, “I’ll find my way. You better get back to the office. I wouldn’t want the Mayor to have any good reason for firing you.”

Especially when knowing the captain of the guard might be extremely useful to my own master plan.

Mallory isn’t quite sure about leaving me behind – still, he does. But before that, he makes me promise to come to dinner that very night – a fancy new address on Knob Hill. He scribbles it down on a piece of paper and gives me a firm handshake before disappearing into the crowd.

I wait for a few moments, observing the pedestrian traffic as it filters past the booths and through the byways of Deluca Square – so unaware that the ground they now walk on with stylish heels was once the famed dumping ground for fresh kills and left over body parts that the mob needed to dispose.

Urban renewal…a fancy name for a fresh coat of paint and a few more cappuccino makers cranking out overpriced brew to the rich and gutless.

The electronic eye of the psychic shop seems to be bearing down on me. I wonder what it sees that I don’t. What the hell? It never hurts to explore the possibilities. Besides, there’s a ‘room for rent’ sign tucked in the lower casing of the window with an arrow pointing to the second floor of the shop that I just might be able to take advantage of.

I venture beyond the merry, multicolored daisy head patterned door jam. Inside the brightly lit shop is a glass counter full of books on everything from the occult, witchcraft and how to become a vegan to experimental age rejuvenating therapies – more myth than fact - and ‘how to’ guides on tantric sex exercises.

Just beyond the wooden beaded curtain that leads to the stockroom there’s the distant tinkle of some new age piano and flute music and gurgling water sound effects that make me need to use the bathroom. There’s also the faint aroma wafting off lavender incense burning from a few lit candles on a corner shelf, guarded by a protective plexi-glass façade to keep sticky fingers and fire bugs at bay.

“Make yourself at home,” a female voice calls out from beyond the beaded curtain, “I’ll be out in a minute.”

The voice seems familiar; welcoming, even. A few brief moments later I get the shock of my life when an all too familiar face and form materialize from just beyond that backroom hippie nirvana: Martinique Chezwyck – the only working girl I ever lost my heart to.

“Oh my God!” she says, understandably just a shaken as I am – maybe even more.

She’s wearing a sexy little white and navy silken kimono, a set of worn platform shoes and a pair of gold paint hoop earring I recall as being her favorite. Even with all her clothes on she’s still the vision most men would cream their wheat over given half the chance, an ounce of encouragement and only a few quick light strokes.

“Edward,” she stammers, collecting her thoughts and approaching me as though I were a stray that needed to be shoed out the door, “It is…Edward…isn’t it?”

“Martinique,” I whisper softly, “You’re still the girl most likely... "

"Don't I know it," she admits, folding her supple arms before her ample bosom, "Well...you can't be here for a freebee. Besides, my time is precious - remember?"

"And by the hour," I add.

"For you, by the minute," she teases, her face softening a moment as she studies me from horn to hoof.

"Just what the hell are you doing here?”

"I've come to have my palm read," I say.

Her harsh look of disbelief dissolves. She reaches over, taking my face in the smooth palms of her two hands and softly pressing her lips to mine. Her kiss, innocent and mesmerizing, sends a sudden numbness down from my head to my arms. I want to take her in my arms, but can’t seem to move. The kiss only lasts a second or two, but I keep replaying it backwards and forwards over the next few moments – determined to get as much playtime out of the memory as linear time will allow.

Afterward, Martinique takes a step back, surveying the wreckage that is my body.

“I’ve aged,” I admit.

It’s easier to defuse the truth that way.

“You have,” she admits, “But I don’t really mind. I just wish…”

She catches herself in her own daydream and reverts back to the form of a shop keeper.

“So,” she says, lips pursed as a young couple in their late teens breeze through the open door, “Can I interest you in something off the shelf?”

“Hey,” the man-child calls out to Martinique with his giggling plaything firmly in tow, “You got any books on kama sutra?”

“You’re not old enough to know what kama sutra is, sonny,” Martinique reasons.

“Then isn’t it about time I learned?”

With speedy restraint, casting her eyes upwards a moment or two, Martinique whisks the couple over to a bookshelf near the counter, pulls out a few choice volumes, while motioning for me to step into her backroom with a polite nod of her head.

“Can we get a psychic reading?” the girl asks as I move beyond the beaded curtain.

“Not today, sweetie,” I hear Martinique tell her, “The planets are not aligned in your favor.”

Some more small talk ensues.

Beyond the beaded curtain the mood of the shop takes on the dark and cozy appeal of a new age whorehouse. The walls have been painted in a dark velvety gray-lavender. A brief narrow hall opens onto a rather large sitting area with all four walls slightly slanted inward and covered in soft silver sparkles. A few dim sconces and one decorative table lamp provide what little light there is. There’s a rather large circular pin cushion-like seating arrangement in the center of the room with a series of gargantuan peacock feathers protruding from its center in a bizarre fountain-like arrangement.

In one corner is an old time gramophone on an ornate wooden carved circular shelf and just beneath it a beat up two speaker radio/CD player piping in some flute and water noise that I suppose is supposed to be feng shui.

In the other corner, an inviting chez lounge built for two is trimmed in the same plush red velvet fabric as the pin-cushion. The old hard wood floor beneath my feet creaks slightly, its sound muffled by the careworn Oriental rug that fills most of the space in a garish swirl of more flavors than a Baskin Robbins.

There are only two other doors in the room, one leading to a back stairwell going up to the second floor above the shop and the other opening onto a much welcomed lavatory so cramped that my legs barely fit on either side of the porcelain bowl. I can practically do my business and wash my hands in the sink at the same time.

I finish up and discover Martinique waiting for me on the chez; her kimono hitched just enough to reveal those celebrated gams of hers and a set of firm calves ageless to the life she used to lead.

“It’s okay,” she reasons, all business and no heart, “They’re gone and I’ve locked up for the day.”

Suddenly, however, the invitation doesn’t seem quite so enticing. In fact, I’m rather ashamed of my rumpled self.

“That isn’t why I came,” I admit, “In fact I didn’t even know you were here.”

“Then why…” she stops short.

“Your sign in the window,” I explain to her, “Room for rent.”

“To anyone but you,” she coolly tells me.

So much for that kiss. More like a kiss off.

“Okay, doll,” I suggest, pouring on the bitterness, “In my next life I plan to be born with the perfect bod’ and enough notches on the ol’ inch worm to satisfy even you. But in this life you get what you get. Neither may live up to your expectations. But you may want to start filling out your own wish list right now. Because I got’ta tell you, honey – there’s a lot a' room for improvement.”

A thin disruptive smile teases its way across her frozen puss until she can’t help but grin with admiration for the fact that, if nothing else, at least I haven’t lost my salty edge where women are concerned.

“Would you care to put your mouth where your money is?” she teases.

“Not even with a prescription,” I say, “Besides, if memory serves me correctly, you were the contortionist in our relationship. Now, how about that room?”

I’ve won her over with a good tongue lashing.

"You're all wet, Eddy," she reasons, "But that's the way I like you."

"How?" I tack on for good measure, "With eight to ten shots of Tequila and pass the worm until it's cut into tiny little pieces?"

"Mister, you got yourself a room," she tells me.

Without further delay, Martinique shows me up the back stairs to a brightly lit loft with a single bed in it that looks kitty-corner onto Deluca Square and Marshall-Pepper with large curtain-less windows. There’s a mini-fridge in one corner and enough space to fit some workout equipment and a small desk – both of which I’ll have to hunt down for myself. Martinique gives me a few brief minutes to make up my mind. She knows I don’t require much more than that to get started – especially when the host is so enticing.

“It’s five hundred,” she tells me.

“You’re a little steep in your pricing, aren’t you?” I suggest, eyeing her.

“For the room,” she coldly replies.

“Just the room?”

“Just the room!”

Room to grow - I hope. I open my wallet and fork out a cool thousand.

“Here,” I say, “That’s for first and last. We can discuss what comes in between when I’ve had a chance to settle in.”

“How long are you planning to stay?”

Long enough to answer my lover’s prayer – at least, I think.

THE END?

No way. Eddie Mars will return in his next adventure on Nov. 1, 2009.

@Nick Zegarac 2009 (all rights reserved).

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

ADVENTURE THE 52nd: THE TIME OF ANGELS


DISCLAIMER for the first time reader:

For those unfamiliar with the posting structure of a blog: postings appear in the order they are made by their author, not necessarily in the order that would most benefit an ongoing series such as the one you are about to read.

Since the purpose of this blog is to be an ongoing thriller, simply removing the previous chapter to alleviate confusion is not an option – since no one coming to the series after the first chapter had been removed would be able to follow the story line.Therefore, if you scroll down or visit the archives in future months, you will be able to read this continuing drama in the manner and order it was intended to be read.

For this reason and purpose each subsequent adventure in the ‘Eddie Mars’ serial will be marked by a number. If you follow these numbers marked at the top of each chapter in their numeric order - eg ‘Adventure the 1st’ - you will be able to follow this continuing saga.

For those savvy to the blog world – this disclaimer may seem redundant, and for that no apology is made. This disclaimer is meant to better acquaint new readers in how the entries in this blog will be posted and how best to follow the series from this point on. And now…

ADVENTURE THE 52ND:
THE TIME OF ANGELS

There’s a very old proverb that claims we were not meant to see the future, because once revealed we might choose otherwise for ourselves. I think I understand that sentiment now; after hours of surgery and months of excruciatingly painful recovery. Today I stand on my two feet for the first time without a walker or cane. Nearly a year’s elapsed and somehow as I hobble more diligently towards a saunter I find myself slipping away from that mental limp that only a month before might have prevented me from escaping my own destiny.

It hasn’t been easy. Hell, it hasn’t even been humane. At times, I would have severed my own jugular at the thought of another day in medical limbo. When I recall it to mind now, my first day at the clinic in Montenegro began uneventfully. With Dr. Bartelli and Father Montague as my mentors in waiting I met the man whom I would come to fear, then passionately hate, and finally, respect – for he was my surgeon…the butcher who hacked into this crippled flesh and brought forth the salvation of renewed steps upon the earth that I once believed so fervently were a thing of my past.

At first glance, Dr. Roberto Estofani was not prepossessing of any great physical stature. He behaved even less like a physician and very much more as I imagined a seventies game show host from the Balkans might – if only I had had access to television programming to confirm my own suspicions. Before my surgery, Dr. Estofani daily waxed affectionately about his work being more akin to an art than a science. I would hourly regard it more as witchcraft after the first blade had been inserted into my spine.

There became a reality of the darkness I had committed myself to; a terrible struggle between this stubborn paralyzed form and the sturdy, unrelenting grip of a madman, so consumed by his own reality to work voodoo magic upon my bones that I am fairly certain many, if not all, of the ethical canons in respectable medicine were broken to satisfy his ego. Only now do I understand that they were also fractured for my benefit.

Where do I begin to put it all into perspective, when so much time has passed without a frame of reference? Was it September…no, October, when I felt as though I might breathe out the last strained exhaust of oxygen and sail into that uncertain abyss from which no mortal has ever returned? It was after the first attempt, I suppose that I surrendered hope to the angels or demons around me. I gave neither more nor less weight – but rather, cast myself upon an open altar to the highest bidder for this unworthy soul.

There were no takers, you see; none who would gamble so wantonly with this wreck of a human being who still believed he could tempt or barter with the fates. I was, after all, a bad risk. But the saints did not want a sinner, and yet, for the blackest heart, my recent conversion appeared more turncoat than running true to form. More contemplation would be needed by all…more time to assess whether I really hated the world or only pretended to for their benefit.

I came quite nearly to the precipice of blind rage, only to be moved into reconsideration by monthly visits from Dr. Bartelli and Father Montague. Each had their reasons. It made it easier for me to believe that Bartelli’s were driven by professional curiosity alone. Many times could I hear his quiet, solemn voice in hushed conversation with Dr. Estofani out in the hall beyond my bed and picture for my own sanity, through the lush haze of morphine, a man so utterly wrapped up in the experiment that he had completely forgotten the human creature at the other end of it.

I reconsider now, through more sobering clarity, that perhaps Bartelli did indeed care about what happened to me on a more social level. Certainly, Father Montague did. Many a night did he pray…or did I? Perhaps we both did, although I’m not predisposed to asking for help – not even from God. But Monty did. Why did he? It was his job. But more than that…at least I think.

For there were some nights I humbly recall in only nightmares now where then I openly wept aloud; relentless, blubbering tears of utter and complete exhaustion. Please let me die, I would think to myself as Monty prayed that I should live. Perhaps we confused Saint Peter with all of our contradictions. I wanted to be done with this life; have the clot of phlegm choke off breath as completely as it had clotted out reason. The only clutch between my sanity and that utter shriek of stark never-ending madness came in the soft flesh of Monty’s fingers tightly clenched around my own, as he softly spoke into my ear that the time of angels had yet to come.

Where his strength derived, I cannot say. I only know I tested the resolve of his wellspring frequently. Were the tables turned, I would have long abandoned my visitations to him. I suspect he knew me too well – with tender heart and moistened eyes he would wipe the beaded drench from my brow and beg me to sip the cool water from my drinking cup…and to never, ever be disheartened.

Was I? How I was, and for so long that it seemed to be merely the way life conducted itself in my hospital room. An endless barrage of tests and surgeries and more tests robbed me of my dignity. I no longer equated my form to that of any man but rather a strange and oddly defective piece of deformed flesh that somehow refused to die as incongruously as it refused to truly live.

Gradually, my reason returned in proportion to the subsiding pain; the ebb of pin prickling arthritis surrendering to genuine feeling in my lower extremities; first, my inner thigh, then loosely about each knee where the woolen lace of my comforter suddenly itched as it had not before. Therapies followed, or torture masked as therapy; absurdly strapped to machines that pulled and stretched and twisted my lower extremities until, in retaliation, they began to stretch and pull and twist on their own.

Little by little, I began to realize what Dr. Estofani regarded as his crowning achievement was indeed a minor miracle. I stood, for the first time, all too briefly in April, in time to observe the swallows returning to their roost high in a turret at Bled Castle. It was exhilarating to wobble as a rag doll on two petrified stilts that were hardly real legs anymore. Still, I began to feel a strange fascination grow within me – a sort of warped sense of self punishment that I fed off of as I continued to subject myself to the therapeutic machinery that worked daily to reprogram my body.

It was Father Montague who first saw his faith confirmed one rainy afternoon as I stood leaning heavily on my walker, waiting patiently with my umbrella overhead for his arrival at the docks. At first he did not see me, or perhaps did, but could not bring himself to acknowledge that somehow, against every fiber of common knowledge, I had defied the odds. Now, it was he who wept great tears of joy and, dropping his black suitcase upon the shimmering cobblestone before me, threw upward his hands into the dull gray heavens before reaching them to embrace me as only a long lost brother might have.

It was the greatest moment of my life, I believe, and so unaware that it could not last forever. I stumbled forward with the toddling confusion of a one year old, each dragging pace hailed as grace itself by Monty. What joy he felt for me that day. What elation to his soul it must have been to have the living proof of his blind believe put forth tangibly.

It’s odd to me, but I cannot recall the rest of that final visit for you now. There are only flashes that sporadically come to mind – as yellowed, bizarrely posed snapshots I am certain do not represent our friendship in any concrete or factual way. It is as though some unnerving force beyond my control has attempted to delete those memories from my mind.

But that last day of our visit is ingrained for eternity within the walls of my heart. Father Montague smiling as we reached the docks and removing a gold chain from his neck with a medallion of St. Christopher hanging from it. He patted me gently on my shoulders as I modestly declined his generous offering, then, accepting, he placed the religious icon about my own neck.

“You have great strength of courage,” I remember Monty saying.

I thought it an inaccurate assessment then. He had been the courageous one. I was revealed as the coward. And so we parted, never to see one other again. I stood with the use of my cane, watching as his small boat sailed away, becoming a distant bobbing bead upon the shifting tides.

For several weeks thereafter I heard nothing from Milan. An unusual and disturbing silence fell on Bled and I came to feel more uncomfortable with each passing day. Then came the unholy news from abroad; that on the eighteenth of June a human pestilence in the shape of a man had arrived on the steps of the Hospital Milano to make inquiries as to my whereabouts. Not finding the answers easily at hand, he had chosen quietly to return the next afternoon and poison the water supply that ran as arteries through the entire complex.

Death spread quickly amongst the patients and staff who drank from their fountains and cups. And still the pestilence was dissatisfied. It crept into the second story offices above the ward, indiscriminately slaughtering all who passed its way, leaving Dr. Bartelli and that beautiful young nurse whose name escapes me now in a bloody pool upon the floor.

And then another report; this one of a body floating face down in the canal outside the city; strangled and bloated from three days sogginess and an uncharacteristically chilling rain that caused it to become entangled in a fisherman’s net. Father Montague was no more and with his untimely passing went the last vestige of my hope for normalcy and a life I could take pride in.

It’s the 10th of August now, and I will do this; not according to Monty’s teachings or the will of God. The die is cast. For the animal that sent my friends to Him did not abide any higher laws. And so shall I, on my next crusade for vengeance, hunt the hunter until he stalks no more; committing myself to the only power in forgiveness that cannot honor, but just kill. The time for avenging angels has arrived.

THE END?

Eddie Mars will return in his next adventure,
MY LOVER’S OASIS on Sept. 20th, 2009.

@Nick Zegarac 2009 (all rights reserved.)

Friday, May 29, 2009

ADVENTURE THE 51st: A PASSAGE TO MONTENEGRO

DISCLAIMER for the first time reader:

For those unfamiliar with the posting structure of a blog: postings appear in the order they are made by their author, not necessarily in the order that would most benefit an ongoing series such as the one you are about to read.

Since the purpose of this blog is to be an ongoing thriller, simply removing the previous chapter to alleviate confusion is not an option – since no one coming to the series after the first chapter had been removed would be able to follow the story line.Therefore, if you scroll down or visit the archives in future months, you will be able to read this continuing drama in the manner and order it was intended to be read.

For this reason and purpose each subsequent adventure in the ‘Eddie Mars’ serial will be marked by a number. If you follow these numbers marked at the top of each chapter in their numeric order - eg ‘Adventure the 1st’ - you will be able to follow this continuing saga.For those savvy to the blog world – this disclaimer may seem redundant, and for that no apology is made.

This disclaimer is meant to better acquaint new readers in how the entries in this blog will be posted and how best to follow the series from this point on. And now…


ADVENTURE THE 51st:
A PASSAGE TO MONTENEGRO

Into the mirror darkly thrust,
a face cautiously emerges,
granite to the enlightenment
untold, guarded -
secretive and silent.

Short, a crop of thick dark hair
perching atop this stoic egg,
yet loose and dangling
before dark, windowless eyes,
displeased by the march of years.

I witnessed nothing then,
so many Godless years,
wanting, unknowing, desiring…but what?
to turn proud nose,
strong chin unbowed.

Until today…as sharp blade to skin,
decapitates virile stubble yet again,
I suddenly burst forth to myself,
fully formed, and quite unbound.

I used to think life was the cruelest joke one human being could bestow on another. In theory and in practice, generalizations aside, there didn’t seem to be any point to it. The daily oblivion of childhood that suddenly was raped by the onset of youth; the mindless quest to make sense of a world I hadn’t helped to create; and finally, coming to that painful realization - that whatever steps I had taken there was an unholy assignation at work against all best laid plans. The fates were somehow stronger then, more determined to have their way with me, however inconvenient the circumstances might otherwise be.

I used to be a cynic. I’m not anymore. Why? I can’t say. I’m tired; that much is for certain. But I don’t care less. In fact, I care more; more than I might have only a few months before; much more than I thought I was capable of.

It’s Monty. He see things differently. He hasn’t been preachy or high minded about it. He hasn’t tried to convert my ideology to his although he’s succeeded in changing the way I see the world…the way I see my place in it. And something more…I’m not ashamed; unafraid to look beyond the mirror and see what the years have brought. I don’t fear what they might bring tomorrow. I’ve lost my fascination with death.

My legs are no longer the measure of manhood. Were they ever all that I ascribed them to be? I cannot say. It doesn’t matter. I only know that I’m a person of substance now, in tune, fit company in my own mind and spirit for the first time in my life.

Don’t misunderstand. I’m still me; still Eddie Mars. I’m not ready to rove the earth a motorized chair, preaching the gospel in sack cloth and ashes, but I understand now the true power of forgiveness and it’s more liberating than I could ever have hoped for.

I see Father Montague regularly on Wednesdays and Saturdays. He comes to me around noon, not asking of my soul, wanting nothing of my mind, but peering into my heart just the same and finding more goodness and light to restore me to myself each time. He always has an answer – though perhaps not the one I’d wish to hear. He respects me enough to forget my feelings and that takes sincerity and guts.

“Do you think I’ll go to hell,” I ask him one afternoon as he pushes me through the garden.

It’s hot, yet neither of us seems to mind. The sun is on my face, but I don’t shield it with large hands or the protective barrier of dark glasses. It feels sincere to stare into the sky and return the gaze – if any - from the man upstairs.

“Perhaps you have been in it for some time,” Father Montague tells me.

“I think I see the exit,” I suggest.

“Perhaps,” Father Montague reasons with a wily grin, “But don’t be too eager. The steps to enlighten also bring us closer to death.”

“And a creator,” I say.

“Only if you believe,” Monty explains.

I’m not sure I like that. It scares me, because I’m not entirely certain I do – believe, that is. Even after all I’ve been through and survived. I don’t know if I can sign up for the full body/mind/spirit botanical wrap and spa treatment in that eternal Garden of Eden beyond the rainbow.

“You do believe?” Monty inquires.

“Oh, yes,” I reluctantly say, the words thick and unconvincing in my throat.

“No, my son,” Monty replies with a small chuckle, “Not yet. But I believe that you can.”

. . .

Two Sundays later I force myself to take up Monty’s challenge. I attended the first mass I’ve been to since I stopped being a choir boy. The sermon’s in Latin and has no meaning for me outside the soothing tonality in Father Montague’s voice – deep baritone majestic vocalizations he uses to spread the good word to his flock. Flock…funny how I used to think of them all as sheep…

Still, I’m fascinated by the paintings overhead; naked baby cherubs sprouting wings from their back, casting playful dispersions on the mere mortals below who sit and contemplate what is never theirs to fully know.

Is there life after death? Why bother? To what purpose? And eternity has such an unfathomable desperation about it. Until this moment in my life I always knew which direction my train was headed. But after the last gasp of air leaves my lungs and I slip the bonds of this careworn frame, what will I leave it for and how will I know the measure of time on the other side?

These are all questions to which Father Montague hasn’t any answers. I find him more cryptic than unsettled by the fact that theology is powerless to suckle my cares away.

“We were not meant to understand,” Father Montague reasons.

“That’s not helpful,” I tell him.

“No,” he admits as he pushes my chair through around a fountain courtyard one lazy summer afternoon.

The rain earlier that morning has left its potent perfume upon the earth and flowers. Filtering sun through dense foliage tickles its way under the woven blanket my nurse tossed across my outstretched legs before we left the hospital.

Everything feels good. In fact, I’ve been aware for some time that I can detect warmth upon these crippled limbs that stubbornly refuse to move.

“I don’t want to know it all,” I lie to Monty, “I’d just like some assurances.”

Father Montague politely smiles as we take our refuge under the shade of a large gnarled tree.

“I don’t think I’d want assurances,” Monty reasons, “An assurance would mean a promise. And, being only a man, and therefore unable to keep my promise to God, I should also lose whatever assurance He made to me.”

“But He forgives us,” I reason.

“He does,” Monty admits, “But he does not forget. We were never meant to understand His will because we misplace our thoughts easily among the mire of this earth. We are occasionally blinded and lost and alone with only our thoughts. What today we value, tomorrow we would surely trade for the next best thing.”

Monty pauses a moment to wipe the streaks of sweat from his large wrinkled brow.

“But let not your heart be troubled, my son,” he adds, “For, we never fall too long, and each time that we do the hand of God is extended to us, to help up from our stumbling, dusting off the clumsiness of our incalculable lack of good sense; reminding how very small in the hollow of this earth we are, yet how very great to be so valued in consideration for that world beyond.”

I’m not sure I feel so valued there yet; knowing full well that I’ve done little to merit such affection and understanding. Still, I seem to rate both these attributes very highly in Monty’s eyes…Dr. Bartelli’s too.

Only a week later, after an absence of some time, Dr. Bartelli comes to my room one rainy afternoon to tell me good news. There is a clinic in Montenegro that would like to perform some highly experimental tests on my spine. Unhampered by the dire red tape that strangles pure research back home, these Balkan physicians have pioneered a preliminary stem cell treatment.

The procedure is hardly foolproof, so I’m told, and not without risk of more extensive damage to my nervous system. In a perfect world, if I am deduced to be a prime candidate, a surgeon will spend almost one full day, cutting into and reattaching the damaged nerve endings inside my spinal chord, injecting a serum that could restore mobility to my lower limbs. It could also leave me paralyzed from the neck down, blind me, cause a stroke or send me to that other world prematurely if infection sets in.

Following this treatment, I will be airlifted to Bled Castle; an elite retreat located in the center of a pristine lake that the locals refer to as an ‘ornament of heaven’. There I shall remain for months, if not a year, convalescing and preparing to walk again.

It’s a tempting offer. It satisfies both my waning ego’s urge to stand on my own two feet once more, but also that sublime desire to shamelessly return to the life that was stolen from me not so very long ago. Why I still should possess these flashing visions of desire for a most base previous existence is beyond me. I cannot help myself. I still daydream of that shabby little apartment on DeLuca Street.

Will I tempt fate? Shall I see if fate is that ethereal spirit of personal conscience readily hypothesized in the Bible or is she more the disfigured hag Shakespeare conjured to mind, bow-legged and stirring the caldron?

“I’m afraid,” I honestly confess to both Dr. Bartelli then and to Father Montague when he comes to visit me later that afternoon.

“As you should be, my son,” Monty replies, “But…in fear there is a heightened sense of awareness. You wish to walk again. For this, no one, least of all Him can fault you. But have you considered where your legs took you when they were well. Not here. You would not have come to us then, my son. You would not have come and we would not have met. Knowing you as I do, I believe that you would have run the farthest from this place. Perhaps, you now have those same thoughts of leaving us again.”

He knows me too well.

“I don’t know,” I lie, “Maybe. Yes. But not to leave what I’ve learned behind. Not to forget what the strength of conviction has meant to me; not to cast off the moments spent into the dust bin of a dead memory. No. I cannot forget a kindness such as yours. I never will. But to walk again…”

My mind is already made up. Monty knows it too. He bows his head a moment, shading his eyes from the sun. We’ll take the Orient Express then; ride all night and all day, and fantasize about ‘maybe’ and ‘perhaps’ and ‘what if’; the intangible temptresses who corrupt men in their own vanities; that all they desire might belong to them one day soon…or never again.

THE END?

EDDIE MARS will return in his next adventure:
THE TIME OF ANGELS on Aug. 10th 2009.

@ Nick Zegarac 2009 (all rights reserved).

Monday, April 20, 2009

ADVENTURE THE 50TH: THE CRIPPLING CONFESSIONAL

DISCLAIMER for the first time reader:

For those unfamiliar with the posting structure of a blog: postings appear in the order they are made by their author, not necessarily in the order that would most benefit an ongoing series such as the one you are about to read. Since the purpose of this blog is to be an ongoing thriller, simply removing the previous chapter to alleviate confusion is not an option – since no one coming to the series after the first chapter had been removed would be able to follow the story line.

Therefore, if you scroll down or visit the archives in future months, you will be able to read this continuing drama in the manner and order it was intended to be read. For this reason and purpose each subsequent adventure in the ‘Eddie Mars’ serial will be marked by a number. If you follow these numbers marked at the top of each chapter in their numeric order - eg ‘Adventure the 1st’ - you will be able to follow this continuing saga.

For those savvy to the blog world – this disclaimer may seem redundant, and for that no apology is made. This disclaimer is meant to better acquaint new readers in how the entries in this blog will be posted and how best to follow the series from this point on. And now…

ADVENTURE THE 50TH:
THE CRIPPLING CONFESSIONAL

"The first step in the acquisition of wisdom is silence, the second listening, the third memory, the fourth practice, the fifth teaching others."

- Solomon Ibn Gabriol

It’s Sunday morning and I am alone. I don’t much mind, having been probed Monday through Friday like a Thanksgiving turkey with enough surgical instruments and electro-cardiogram tape to warrant my own booth at the next freak show passing through town.

But Sunday’s different. At least, here it is. It’s still a religious experience, steeped in the traditions of an unerring faith that seems to even ease the spank of my own paralysis. Funny, I don’t miss the use of my legs as much as I thought I would. I mean, I haven’t had that moment yet where I begin to uncontrollably blubber for the fact that I can’t tie my own laces or run to the 7-11 for another pack of cigarettes.

Of course, I have a cute Sicilian nurse’s aid to thank for the proper care and maintenance of this retired chasse. Sponge baths may not be a luxury but they can be downright satisfying.

Her name’s Maria. She has the classical appeal of a Boteccelli masterpiece. That she’s engaged to an impossibly handsome young stud whose picture she carries around in her skirt pocket and has readily shown me with all of the restrained excitement of a good Catholic girl brought up on enforced piety and the strap is no surprise. Carlo, her beloved, is one lucky man though he probably doesn’t know it. He’s become too used to examples of physical perfection in his midst.

Last Tuesday, Maria wheeled me into a hospital courtyard overlooking the piazza and I was amazed at how many rarified female beauties were milling about; all properly quaffed and smartly dressed so as never to reveal too much. I could retire here a happy guy, only I’ve little to offer any girl but the promise that she’ll have to prop me up in public and lay me down in private.

It’s funny, because on occasion I feel pain in both limbs, something the good doctors tell me is a figment of my imagination; sympathy from the thwarted impulses sent bouncing back and forth from my brain to my legs that keep getting lost somewhere in the equatorial abyss below my belt buckle.

As I lay awake and emotionless, I can hear the bells of an eighteenth century chapel peel madly, beckoning all who believe to the altars of prayer. Me? I never believed. Oh, I have no doubt that there’s a higher power. I mean, I think it’s terribly gauche of atheists to suggest to the rest of us that some bizarre cosmic accident formulated a single planet in this never-ending ether, simply to sustain our sorry ass lives as we know them.

Then again, they probably think me terribly misguided and the biggest hypocrite around; believing, as I do, in a Holier law than my own, yet constantly breaking every commandment without even the slightest bit of remorse. They probably have something there.

I pass the morning like a mild stool, a little light breakfast brought in by an elderly matron with large polite eyes, soft smile and a ‘Bon appetite’ before she leaves the tray behind; a grapefruit, black coffee, some warm cereal and a glass of orange juice.

Around noon, Dr. Bartelli tells me that he has a surprise. I’m moderately intrigued for a moment, but suddenly find myself stirred to slight aggravation at the sight of a priest entering my room. He has the same kindly appeal as the rest of them, but somehow I’m not particularly interested in what he has to say.

I suspect that my discomfort might have something to do with the fact that I don’t much feel like ‘confessing’ to another man – any man. I never understood the placement of private secrets with another creature of this earth simply because we don’t shop for clothes at the same department store. After all, we both piss from the same apparatus into urinals.

“This is Father Montague” Dr. Bartelli explains, “I thought perhaps he might comfort you today.”

“Why?”

My note of apprehension catches both men off guard. I feel naked, as though my disdain for ‘the man’ and not ‘the cloth’ is screaming quotations by Regan from The Exorcist. Father M gets over his sourness first, leaning in to extend his hand. I shake it, reluctantly, and don’t ask him to sit down.

“May I?” he finally asks.

I nod, my gesture stiff and rigid.

“I’ll return in a little while,” Dr. Bartelli explains.

Great!

A few awkward silent moments pass. I turn my head away from Monty to the window sill where a ridiculous dove has been casually pecking into the wooden frame.

“The dove,” Father Montague exclaims quietly, “A symbol of faith.”

I’ve had enough.

“Look,” I say sternly, spinning my head around so fast I almost gives myself whiplash, “I don’t think I want to confess.”

Father Montague shakes his head, raising and waving his aged, crooked index finger quietly in my direction.

“This, I did not come for,” he replies, the creases from his smile creating liquid crevasses across his cheeks and chin.

“Oh,” I pull back.

“Dr. Bartelli is my half brother,” Father Montague explains, “I came to see him and he told me about you.”

“Oh,” I say again, not knowing what else to say.

I feel that an explanation is somehow in order, but don’t quite know where to begin. Monty’s a good mind reader because he avoids all the usual saintly clichés and talks to me on my level.

“Are you comfortable?” he asks.

“In spots,” I admit.

“Can I be of assistance?”

I feel like a heel to ask, but since when has that ever stopped me before.

“Could you maybe fluff my pillows a bit?”

He does, without reservation or even a modest expression of irksomeness that I’m certain he must feel deep down. After all, he’s only a man like me. When he’s finished and I’m propped up to better receive a guest, Monty takes his place on the stool nearest my bed.

“Has your brother told you about my legs?” I ask.

“He said you were in a terrible accident.”

So the priest’s cagey. And clever, I’ll give him that. He says what he wants to and leaves the rest to my baited imagination.

“While, I’m crippled,” I explain, “I’ll never walk again.”

“You must have faith.”

There it is. The cliché of clichés I knew would come. I want to take my pillows and pummel the priest. I think better of my urge and instead decide to play myself as the dejected invalid.

“Could you please, just not…” I say.

“I’m sorry,” Father Montague replies, “I did not mean to upset you.”

He means it too. I can tell.

“You haven’t,” I explain, “It’s me. I…well…I haven’t exactly been what you would call a model citizen.”

“And what is that?” Monty replies.

I detect a very minute hint of sarcasm.

“You know, padre,” I say with a half smile, “I’ve used up all my worry beads and given plenty of angels a damn good reason to weep. All in all, I’m undeserving, I guess is what I’m trying to say. I don’t belong on the top ten list for salvation.”

Father Montague lowers his head. At first I think he’s preparing to pray. Then, I realize he’s trying to conceal a broad smile that’s stretched across his face. He’s laughing at me.

“You think that’s funny?” I ask him.

“Typical,” he replies, “If you have looked into the heart of others and found nothing there to nourish your own, then perhaps you have merely been keeping the wrong company. You see, our own frailty is that we are ever more likely to assume the vices of others, rather than their virtues. Please. If I have offended you, I apologize.”

“Think nothing of it,” I mutter, “I don’t offend easy. Too much scar tissue. Call it my Teflon coated ego. It hasn’t sought too much from life. As a result I haven’t been quite so deluded not to have found anything in it. Guess I’m a lost cause.”

I suddenly feel like one too; stripped to the raw vein and nerve endings that seem to ache everywhere.

“You are only a man and therefore imperfect,” Father Montague explains, “Like me.”

A priest who only considers himself a guy? I’m intrigued. The only kind of ‘men of faith’ I knew back home were a bunch of social hypocrites; Father DeBeque, who diddled a couple generations of choir boys before being relocated to parts unknown; Father Emile, the one who knocked up and had a kid by Sister Agatha; and Father Richelieu – the Jimmy Swaggart of his people, having sinned with practically every married woman and widow in town. But Monty’s not like them. Or is he?

“I was a boy of thirteen in Milan,” Father Montague explains, “Poor, afraid and quite alone. I stole bread to survive. Then, one day a baker grabbed me by my hand and tried to call for the police. I was young. I was afraid. I stabbed him with his own cutting knife. He bled to death on his own kitchen floor and I went to prison. Then a strange thing happened to me. The widow of the baker came to see me in prison. She said she forgave me my sin. She asked the court for clemency. I served my time until I was nineteen and was then given a choice in life; either a work camp or the monastery. I chose God then and it has made all the difference since.”

I’m suddenly quite humbled by the story. But Monty has no idea who he’s talking to. He killed one man. I can’t even remember how many there have been. So, I decide to set this man straight. I tell him about a few of the men I’ve killed and the women I’ve deflowered and the brutes I’ve taken modest pleasure in beating up along the way. I tell him about the secret society and about being trained as an assassin and accepting both as my lot in life without even a modest nod to the fact that neither was good for me.

“We’re talkin’ double and triple digits here,” I suggest to Monty, “Not that it matters how many, I suppose. One sin is just as wrong as twenty – but if I remember well enough from my Sunday school days with Sister Hebert – two shows a definite unwillingness on my part; that I knew the first one in the cue wasn’t going to improve my chances of coolin’ off upstairs instead of dropping to the hot basement for more practice.”

I explain to Monty that he’s sitting across from a pariah, not the Christ child and that I’ve been around so many blocks, doing so many wrong turns, that I don’t think God would have it in his heart to pencil me in for a harp and some wings in that white fluffy hereafter.

Monty listens to everything I have to say with a grave, though not critical, eye. I keep trying to tell him I doubt the existence of my own soul but I see no expression across that aged face that would mirror my disgust.

“All in all,” I conclude, “my reputation’s shot full a’ holes. Nothing left, you see. Nothing to work with.”

But Monty doesn’t agree.

“Reputation is what others think of us,” Monty suggests, “But true character is what God and the angels know of us. You have character, my son, and that is an eternal.”

I don’t detect a hint of sympathy in Father Montague’s tone – which is not what I’m looking for anyway in this ‘show and tell’. I hate people who tell you how bad they feel for you, only deep down we both know they’re breathing a sigh of relief that your life is more rotten than theirs.

“When God set your feet upon the earth,” Monty begins, “…it was with the understanding that you would not be able to stay the course. If you have been tested and chosen your destiny unwisely, you haven’t failed Him, my son. You’ve merely been shown the error of your way.”

He’s good. I’ll give him that. If not lifted, then I suddenly feel as though a few of my burdens have been lessened.

“That’s good and well,” I offer, “But if I continued to fail?”

“Then perhaps you were not ready to accept His love,” Monty suggests, “There is an old proverb for which I cannot take credit – ‘when the pupil is ready, the master will appear’.”

Oh, those old proverbs! They never fail. I can just imagine a bunch of pious old buggers sitting around a campfire with some freshly distilled monastery wine to help ease them into their cleverness.

It’s odd. I don’t find myself feeling disagreeable any more. It’s not mental exhaustion that takes all the sting and venom out of me either. It’s Monty. He’s impossible to dislike. Everything he says has meaning and weight, although done in such a way so that nothing is fraught with meaning or weightiness besides. He doesn’t make me feel small for my indiscretions. In fact, all in all I feel somewhat better about them.

“How is it that you can find so much goodness in me?” I inquire.

“How is it that you can see so little?” Monty replies.

“You’re a difficult man to argue with, Father Montague,” I reason.

“I hope so,” he tells me with an angelic smile.

THE END…
…not yet.

Eddie Mars will return in his next adventure –
PASSAGE TO MONTENEGRO
on June 15th, 2009.

@Nick Zegarac 2009 (all rights reserved).

Saturday, March 14, 2009

ADVENTURE THE 49TH: THISTLE AND DARKNESS

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ADVENTURE THE 49TH:
THISTLE and DARKNESS


La Luna

The moon is bright.
She speaks to me.
Swimming on the winged rim of lunar afterbirth,
- a sacrament, most ethereal.
Tempting me higher,
as though by cruel unbound fate,
to draw and suck the breath from my ailing body
Until a last -
in tepid hollow gasps
escapes -
upward,
my eyes fixed upon her dilated curves.
Never to catch that cratered hem,
- voluptuously still,
that magical orb of reflected light.
Solid and firmly mounted
in the eternal blast of mysteries profound,
Godless stratos -
feared, unbound,
dissolving,
beyond a penitent vista.

I hadn’t planned on becoming a corpse. Only, there I was, brittle and stiff like a stick of processed fish; tightly strapped down on a gurney in the back of an ambulance – two soft spoken Brits filling my ailing body with fresh plasma and evenly timed bags of pressurized air; counting down precise increments to the shallow rise and fall of my chest as I slip further from their lifesaving proclivity.

“We’re losing him,” one would say.

“His BP is dropping,” the other would then reply.

Another shot of something or other – hastily burying the tip of a very long needle into the already well established port jutting from my left arm; a few more light amps from the paddles, optimistically placed for maximum effect.

Remarkably, I lay there in a state of total peace; or rather, sat quietly at the side of my own bed, looking down, gently and in silence at the remains of that rigid frozen façade chaining me to earth.

It was over in a matter of moments. The one EMT turned to the other, sighing, “Well, that’s that.”

I am draped in a loose white sheet from horn to hoof – the blood from my wounds soaking through as the two men who had worked so diligently toward my preservation now casually sit back in complacent acceptance of my demise.

“Where should we go tonight for a drink?” the one says.

“You decide,” replies the other, “This pint’s be on me.”

. . .

I don’t remember the next few days. Perhaps ‘days’ is inaccurate to describe the modicum of time spent somewhere between this world and the next. If I dig deep enough, I seem to recall from my present slumber a dark meadow of hemlock, my bare feet scarcely touching a lush, thriving surface of tenderly moist, braided garden patch.

The drive unwound before me like a great orbiting corkscrew with no middle to be reached. As I say, all this comes to me now in fits of very fuzzy, unsustainable recollections that may or may not be true to memory. Certainly, they continue to seem very real to me.

There was a series of great halls ahead, open to the encroachment of nature from all sides. Towering cathedral-like glassless windows were imbedded into fragments of craggy rock and the occasional thistle jealously draped around like a salamander.

The ground beneath has turned to cold stone and uncomfortable small pebbles that occasionally get stuck between my naked toes. I walk the path in pools of stardust occasionally parting from the otherwise velvety blackened sky.

Occasionally, I pass the odd weary traveler also strolling amongst the foliage. We say nothing to one other, nor do I recall having set eye to eye with any of the ghostly visages teasingly concealed just ever so slightly from my view. Their bodies are more real to me somehow; proud and erect or portly or slumped; distinctive in their gate. They all appear to know where they’re going.

Except one man – at least, I recall him to appear as a man – dressed in fine linen and carrying a briefcase from which a series of crumpled papers protruded. There was a definite defect to his walk, as though his left leg were somehow not properly attached from the knee down and, as he moved onward I detected a curious slight hiss and steam coming off the whole of his shape. I thought him terribly lost and tried to intervene, for the way to my own destiny seemed more aligned with the absence of his than in any of the other souls I passed on this road to nowhere.

But when I reached to tap his shoulder, a great wind and violent dust arose from the earth beneath us – choking out reason and snuffing whatever confidence I had stored away for this journey. In the aftermath of this brief and frightening thunder cloud, I beheld that my feet now stood firm on a dusty surface of incredible debris, one foot holding down a loose sheet of business letterhead that might otherwise have been carried off with the stern breeze; as apparently both the man and his briefcase had been. As I knelt to retrieve this paper, I instinctively clutched my heart; for something inside of me suddenly felt isolated, hollowed out and ominously alone. One World Trade Center - printed at the top – was all it said.

. . .

You must understand something before I continue; realize now that none of what I am speaking of seems more than a dream remembered or perhaps nightmares re-visited. I do not see the whole - only pieces as they played out for me and cannot describe the many modules I drifted through or vignettes that seemed to rotate like a carousel of temporary diversions; this great mobile of missing fragments to a life that may or may not have had anything legitimately to do with mine.

I did not see the Virgin Mary, or Jesus or God, nor Buddy Holly or Elvis or even Marilyn Monroe on my travels. I did not unravel the mystery of the Blue Dalia or the Kennedy assassination. There was no great light or the voice of Cecile B. DeMille's burning bush to guide my footsteps; no pitchfork toting devil to leer up at me from beneath the thistle and singe my toes with brimstone.

Once, I think I attempted to speak to another traveler along the road – a girl about sixteen. She passed my way on that endless stretch of indistinguishable time; humming a polite little tune – “Goodbye, little yellow bird…”; the untied stretches of her cotton knit pink housecoat dallying behind her a moment or two as she dragged her feet loosely through the underbrush.

I don’t know why, but I think I chased her – or that is, pursued; quietly at first, then calling her name that, strangely enough, I knew.

“Ramona,” I’d say here and there, somehow not caring if she heard me, “Ramona? Are you deaf?”

But always she passed a little ahead of me into one of those deep and never-ending shadow lands just beyond the horizon of rich life-giving light pools that had begun to be less few and far between.

At last, I made a pact with myself to hide inside the hemlock and await her return. I was sure she would come. And so she did, this time closer and prettier than ever. I reached from my place, feet stepping firm on the ground beneath me this time, and suddenly struck by how charred the ends of her housecoat and collar were.

I felt myself resort to a look of stunned absolution as her head turned ever so slightly from left to right to reveal the caved in surface of her skull; the mat of her richly dark and sweet smelling tresses suddenly giving off an acrid scent of burnt flesh and bone – her angelic features dark and peeling until the skin hung from her apple shaped cheekbones as a scorched mass of brutalized sinew.

Raising an exposed bone from the vacant back flesh of her index finger, she pressed momentarily this thin wicket to the edge of a very brown lip – discolored as though it were a baked apple left too long to cook in its own juices – and blowing me an insinuating kiss of last farewell she suddenly dissolved into ether. That was all, and the last I ever saw of her. I would come to wish that I would never see her again.

. . .

I awoke on a Friday, in a hospital in Trieste, the whiny echo of Giorgio Conte cooing in my ear – “Gne, gne, gne, gne.” A pretty little nurse stood at the foot of my bed, smiling when she realized that my eyes had suddenly opened.

“Buon giorno,” she said.

“I suppose it is,” I reasoned, each word clotting like a thick wad of gauze in my parched throat, then – just to brush up my foreign languages a bit for the local color, “Dove sono?”

Another smile, and a hint of an even more polite and gentile curtsy. “In ospendale.”

“Ringraziamento,” I sputter.

I haven’t the heart or the energy to tell her I’ve already figured that one out for myself.

She’s a goddess; a sort of Florence Nightingale for the Tuscan set, with long dark curls falling neatly beneath her nurse’s cap; a set of full Botticelli inspired breasts pressed tightly against the white tunic and long sleeved navy shirt she wears, with even her collar button neatly pinned into place.

“Sogni d’oro,” she tells me, fluffing my pillow with the most tender of care and subtle attention to every detail.

I’ve rated the quality stay at the ‘Comfort Inn’ of all hospital care; something no HMO back home would have afforded me unless I was a ward of the state. And it’s a good idea too – to sleep. I take my Tuscan savior’s advice and nod off – my one regret that she won’t lay by me and pray for that eternal adventure to begin.

. . .

The human body is a marvel – at least, so I’m daily told by Dr. Bartelli, a stout, bald man of impeccable dress and carriage who comes each day after two in the afternoon to observe my progressive mend on the road to wellness again.

“You’ve made remarkable progress,” he tells me.

And I believe him implicitly. Why shouldn’t I. I don’t feel as bad as I expected to.

“How did I…” I begin.

“You were air lifted from Germany,” Dr. Bartelli explains.

“But how did I get there?” I reason.

“You mean you don’t know?”

I shake my head.

“Amnesia is not uncommon,” the doctor explains, “And probably not permanent.”

“When can I go…” I pause, catching myself in a delusion of self importance.

Where? Where would I go? To whom would I go? Those that would care enough to worry have long been dead and those that have only an interest in my whereabouts will plan to finish the journey I started between thistle and darkness.

“You wish to go home?” the doctor asks.

“No hurry, I guess,” I tell him, with no concept of where ‘home’ is.

He speaks very good English, the doctor – much better than my Italian – and spends a great deal of time over the next few days getting to know me as a person, rather than as a patient and from the ground up. I can’t quite say whether it’s my weakened physical state that permitted the loose waggling of my tongue, but I confided a lot of water under my bridge to this man.

We talk of life and women and the importance of establishing families of our own as time begins to betray our tenure on this planet. Only a month earlier, I would have told this same man to take his blarney from the cobblestones of Venice and toss it into the backwoods wading pool of Tammy and the Bachelor. I would have been glib and cocky and so sure that he didn’t know his own soft ass from a bowl of melting gelato.

Only now, it’s all sort of quaint and philosophical, yet stimulating and life affirming. For the first time in a really long while I’m inspired to expect something better for myself. I’m not exactly certain what that may be, but I sure as hell know it’s not what I’ve been getting.

Then the good doctor hits me with the holy of holies when I least expect it – revealing a piece of the puzzle that even I hadn’t counted on.

It seems that I have sustained major nerve damage to my spinal chord in the ‘accident’. Although I can move my legs ever so slightly, the good doctor is realistically doubtful that I’ll ever walk again.


THE END?

Eddie Mars will return in his next adventure – The Crippling Confessional on May 5, 2009.

@Nick Zegarac 2009 (all rights reserved).

Sunday, December 28, 2008

ADVENTURE THE 48TH: IN THE BLEAK, BLEAK WINTER

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ADVENTURE THE 48th:
In The Bleak, Bleak Winter

No one would ever guess it now, but I was a sickly child; pneumonia at eight and a bout of rheumatic fever just before I hit my teens. I was a pasty little lad with about as much curb appeal as road kill. I remember those years only faintly now, perhaps in truth, because I’d rather forget childhood all together and move on to that moment just past puberty when my whole world started coming apart.

Mom bought the farm at thirteen and dad took to the bottle. He was a great guy when he wasn’t pissed out of his mind and blaming me, grandpa, the milkman…anybody and everybody except himself for his own predicament. But when I was fifteen I suddenly sprang up like a weed – a big one – and with enough pent up frustration brought on by puberty to really start something, one way or the other. It wasn’t so easy to take a pot shot at me anymore, no matter the quantity of cheap spirits consumed.

I’m not big on all the psychological mumbo-jumbo parents put their kids through on the road to adulthood. I suppose it helps if you have parents who have grown up first before they start spitting out offspring like the Von Trapp family commune. Oh, well; we take what we have and make the best of it, I suppose. But all that damn nonsense about life giving you lemons and what you’re supposed to do with ‘em once you know you’re never getting the hell out of hell is a lot of hooey!

If you’re in for the citrus crop there’s neither the time, inclination nor know how to do anything but suck on the lemon you’ve been force fed until you’re puckered on a sour stain of eternal regret. That’s just how it is. One in a hundred million will turn their compromised existence into something worth remembering. Maybe one in a million will learn how to erase or at least fabricate a successful façade. But these unfortunates haven’t overcome anything. They’re just the newest social frauds. They know everything about them is a lie, but figure that it doesn’t matter so long as the rest of us believe their myth.

Women are better at making up their past than men. They’re born liars. I observe this carefully as Maryilla and I take a noon day train from London to Derbyshire. I know Sergei’s on board, only he’s disappeared somewhere after the tickets were punched; the invisible man. It suits him.

“You’re awfully quiet,” Maryilla tells me.

“Not awfully,” I say, “Besides, what’s there to say? The friends in my pocket’ll do all the talking once we get there.”

I tap my coat pockets to reassure myself that the switchblade and pistol I’ve managed to smuggle aboard are still with me. A lesser fool would have ditched the knife or just shot himself in the leg with his firearm to get the whole damn mess over with. Guess I’m a masochist. I keep both close to that spot where my heart ought to be but know better than to let rashness overtake in the baggage car.

My answer hasn’t impressed her. In fact, I detect a distinct note of disgust as Maryilla leans back in her seat.

“Why are you so guarded?”

“I find I live longer when others don’t know what I’m thinking,” I confide.

It’s true. That is the reason.

“You’re not alive,” Maryilla mutters, her gaze turned out the window at the flashes of speeding scenery. Then, the clincher - “Neither am I.”

“I’m glad you included yourself among the missing,” I tell her, “I was beginning to get lonely.”

A thin smile materializes from beneath Maryilla’s tight upper lip.

“Life hasn’t been kind,” she suggests in a tone that’s supposed to get me to reveal more than I will.

I don’t fall into her sand trap, but can feel her tiny granules of curiosity swirling around my hips like a dizzying hula hoop full of prodding intrigue.

“Suppose you leave snap analysis at your own back door,” I suggest, “I’m not up for a couch session, doctor. Not unless you’ve managed a fine merlot and some soft canned music to set the mood.”

Maryilla closes her eyes, her long hair falling fresh and abundant across her cheeks as she buries the back of her head in the seat cushion headrest.

“Even then, I’m not sure that you would bite,” she teases.

“Oh, yes I would,” I tell her, without believing it entirely myself, “I’d leave teeth marks to. You’d know it.”

She laughs, her bright pink tongue darting playfully between perfect white teeth.

“Blood sucker,” she whispers, jokingly.

I let her have it – both barrels.

“I thought that was your department.”

. . .

Let it never be said that I can’t kill the mood. Playtime is one thing, but with the company I’ve been keeping playtime is reserved for the chisel and screwdriver set.

Without warning Sergei materializes; his brow, narrow; his scowl deeper than I remember. He’s a block of soulless granite, alright; chiseled from the pillar of hard knocks – the ones that attempted to crush him at an early age, but failed. Sergei hates the world. I can’t say I’m much for it, but in general I don’t wish it ill. I just want it to leave me alone. But Sergei – he truly despises anything that’s had the hand of man on it and that includes Maryilla.

I don’t know why or how, but these two are a curious alliance. I get the vibe that Sergei’d like to push his mistress off a tall mountain or weigh her heavy with a pair of cement Manola Blahniks only he doesn’t dare. It isn’t loyalty or even fear that keeps him in check. The aphrodisiac that keeps this animal on his chain? Don’t know - yet. I only know that Maryilla’s charm escapes me. It always has.

We get off together at Westerfelt Station in the North Country; an impossibly tiny hamlet that probably hasn’t seen any action since the blitz of ’42. The station is at a crossroads that quickly opens to rolling countryside on all four sides. As far as I can make out there’s only a petrol station, a pub and an abattoir to recommend the place. Eat here and get gas doesn’t begin to describe my thoughts.

“What now?” I ask.

“Now we get someone to drive us out to the Montague estate,” reasons Maryilla, “I hope you’ve had time to digest our plan of action.”

In point of fact, I have. I was saving the surprise for our arrival at Jeffrey’s, but I don’t really see the point in not letting this sterile cat out of the bag right now.

“You’re going to kill him,” I inform Maryilla.

I expected her to be thoroughly amused by my suggestion. She isn’t.

“The plan was…” Maryilla begins.

“Plans have changed,” I add, “Besides I’m not going to kill someone I’ve never met. I need at least a first visit to build up that much animosity for my fellow man.”

At this point, Sergei looks as though he might be willing to get a tad frisky with me, so I show them both that I mean what I say by cocking my loaded gat under my coat and slowly shaking my head.

“You’ve already decided on a corpse,” I reason, “But I’m not that particular. Any ‘body’ will do.”

Maryilla and Sergei exchange passing glances. There’s a brief moment of tension between us before she agrees to my terms – or, at least, agrees to placate them until such time as she can stick my knife in me for desertion.

“Then, why have you come all this way?” Maryilla says.

She’s entitled to that much. No, let me rephrase that. She’s not even deserving of that much, but I’m big enough to provide her with the information.

“Curiosity,” I admit.

“You know what they say,” Maryilla replies quickly, “I mean…what it did to the cat?”

I smile, a most pithy retort dripping from my lips.

“Well, maybe they just didn’t have the right pussy on tap.”

. . .

So, I layout the plan as I see it. Since I’ve never met Jeffrey Lynn-Montague, a.k.a. Das Englander, I’ll go along for the ride and use myself as the pass key to get everyone inside the estate. Once in, they’re on their own. If Jeff’s an average shot, then I take the train back to London with Slick and Ugly in tow, collect the Don and hightail it to some higher ground where local law enforcement isn’t so particular about hoodlums living right under their precinct. If, on the other hand, ol’ Jeff is a class ‘A’ marksman and flattens the competition, I’m not above learning a few tips and maybe getting a pass on walking away the winner by default. It’s that simple. Winner takes all.

. . .

We make a pretty out of place trio, piled into the back of a flat open surrey that’s punted through the countryside by a horse at least two years overdue for the glue factory. Our driver rates the same introduction; forty-ish and nattering on about the time Princess Diana asked if the baubles he had hanging off of ‘Ol’ Nellie’ were, in fact, genuine gold.

“Then I says to her Royal Highness…”

And so it goes; on and on and with no perceivable end in sight. The guy’s so one dimensional, paper cutouts have more depth. Still, he was easy to find and didn’t take to accepting too large a payment for this lift on account of he was lugging a few gallons of fresh milk to the Montague estate.

It’s cold. There’s a carpet of fresh fallen snow across most of the landscape that makes for a clean slate pasted against the backdrop of a flat gray sky. Every once in a while the surrey pulls to the left as its front wheels lock in the slush and are dragged crookedly toward the mud, only to jump back in line when they hook into the rough edge of the paved road.

Fifty-two minutes later, and we’re rounding the corner of a high rising hill that gradually gives way to a sprawling country estate.

“Nice work if you can get it,” I mutter at a moment’s lull in our driver’s monologue.

“You thinks so, sir?” our driver replies, “M’ybe. But I says to the Misses just last night that them what has the price of a packet of tea know on whose backside they spread their tissue. And them what has more than a few sheds to hang that tissue in probably know under which ones all them dead bodies is buried.”

I’m inclined to agree with him, particularly as he brings Old Nellie to a stop in front of the gargantuan front façade of an estate, marked VimView. The grounds are a frightful mess of entangled wild bramble and thistle half buried in swollen crests of new fallen snow. Only the house looks as though it’s had some repairs done to maintain it as best the new rich can.

We disembark the surrey. Sergei tips the cabbie. Funny, I thought he’d rather cut the ol’ boy’s head off once we arrived. Oh well, I internally reason, the day’s full of surprises.

I realize the brevity of that afterthought as the front door to VimView opens and an all too familiar face materializes from the home’s blackened interior. It’s Karl Talenburg; immaculately dressed and with more than an ounce of curious twinkle suddenly firing up behind the eye.

I’m no mind reader, but Karl looks particularly pleased with himself, like a fat house cat whose just put his mitts in the catnip and found the bonus of a dead budgie to snack on.

“Tell me,” he asks with that thin grimace stretching to the peripheries of his cheek bones, “What was your first thought…I mean, at that particular moment?”

“Writing a book on near death experience,” I quip.

My smug reply seems to please him. Stands to reason. We’re in the preliminary stages of our cute meet. The love affair’s still on.

“Is there no end to your talents?”
“There is,” I assure him.

“But I’m curious…”
“So was the cat. Remember what happened to him?”

Karl gives out with a polished chuckle. I’m about to take him down memory lane for a nightmare or two.

“I don’t worry about death, Mr. Mars,” Karl admits.
“No, I suppose not,” I agree, “Say, why not Eddie? We’ve known each other long enough.”

“Too long.”

I don’t expect the rather large Lugar Karl whips out from his velvet robe and apparently neither do Sergei or Maryilla. My mistake. I’ve made quite a few on this adventure and this may be my last.

“We meet again, Das Englander,” Maryilla says.

So that’s Das Englander. Karl, Jeffrey Lynn- Montague Talenburg…etcetera and so on. He’s the chameleon, which probably makes Maryilla his angel of death. Just what any of this makes me is wide open to interpretation. If looks could kill, old Karl would already be compost for the spring garden.

“My dear, Maryilla,” Karl reasons, “You are a luxury no man can afford.”

“Though I’m sure more than a handful has tried,” I reason, attempting in vane to break the tension, “What about friendship?”

I hear the click of another gun being cocked behind our backs. Sure enough, the old pudge-pot surrey driver has been workin’ the other side of the rainbow, taking notes from we three Munchkins in the back of his sleigh. I thought it was too easy getting him to commit to this trip in the frigid country for only a few quid and not much pro quo.

“You’re a genuine ripper, mate,” the cabbie tells me.

“And you’ve read too many Daphne Du Maurier novels,” I spit back, “Give it a rest and put your pea shooter where it’ll do the least damage – between your ears.”

“Keep your hands where I can see them,” Karl commands, “All of you. Inside.”

How can such a gracious invitation be refused?

We’re corralled like three head of dim-witted cattle into a great hall with limitless possibilities for the next Halloween spook fest…if any of us lives that long. At one end the gaping mouth of a roaring fire yawns like the gates to hell. I suddenly have this vision of my head bubbling on the spit. It’s not a glamorous afterthought, I’ll grant you, but I’m too afraid to consider how close it might be to my future.

“By all accounts we ought’a be sharing daisies at Greenlawn instead of barbs across a gun,” I suggest to Karl, attempting to trade on my limited past intrigues as his confident, “Seems someone’s been exaggerating the truth.”

“Is that how it seems to you?”
“Uh-huh.”
“Who do you suspect as the liar?”

“You,” I openly admit, giving him a moment to get nervous before finishing my thought, “Me. Our mutual acquaintance standing here at the threshold of the ‘dearly departed’ club and maybe, just maybe…the man in the moon.”

“Why?” Maryilla interrupts.

I want to tell her shut up. I want to badly. Only I’m not sure I should be turn-coating on her just yet. Instead I just give her one of those looks my father used to give me after coming in late – it’s a look you have to master. Apparently, I haven’t yet.

“My dear,” Karl tells her, his clear cut annunciation hardly taking the edge off, “You are not in a position to question my motives.”

“Maybe not,” I reason, “But I’ll bet she’s been in that position before.”

I’ve hit a chord or a nerve or maybe just hammered home the rose-colored truth of the matter – that, at some point, Maryilla and Karl had been lovers.

“You amuse me, Mr. Mars.”

“Then my purpose hasn’t been wasted. You know, I’m nobody’s idea of purity, but on a good day I am forty proof.”

“What are you after?” Karl prods.

I think maybe I’ve struck a blow to counterbalance what only moments before must have appeared as my utter lack of sincerity – bringing an old flame and future assassin to his front door.

“The truth,” I admit, “Oh, theories are alright for suckers. In some cases, down right satisfying. Connect the dots. Fit pieces into a puzzle. Analyze the contents of a Petri dish. Only, roll the dice once too often and you wind up in a rich man’s boudoir starring down the barrel of a not so friendly and pondering secret lists, dead hookers and what you think will happen after the big man upstairs calls you home for his game of cribbage. House rules.”

I’ve softened the mood somewhat.

“I’ll not ask you if you’re afraid of death,” Karl reasons, “I believe I know the answer.”

“Maybe,” I continue, “But to answer your question, ‘not particularly’. Just how my remains will look splashed across the front tabloids may leave me sleepless and haunting this place though.” Then, nodding in the direction of Maryilla and Sergei, “Especially when I’m in with such good company.”

The cabbie laughs out loud. He’s not very good at concealing his feelings – just a fool who thinks a gat in the hand is worth more than a levy of impeccably timed logic. I don’t despise men like him. After all, they’re on the short list of the expendable.

“You’re no fool, Mr. Mars,” Karl tells me.
“Oh, thank you.”
“If you were, we wouldn’t be having this conversation right now. I’m listening. Where do we go from here?”

Somehow I’ve managed to win chits from a man who doesn’t usually regard others as part of the same crap game. It’s strange. I don’t know whether I should be flattered or disgusted by the compliment.

“I’ve got half a list that says this whole thing’s been the original goose that gave chase,” I begin, “Only, I manage a slow waddle a lot longer then any of us hoped for. You used me as a fail safe to keep your competition busy. This whole thing started with a man named Hemmingway; a busy guy – buying up half the port side of Louisiana and most of lower Manhattan and doing a whole lot of nothing with both…at least on the surface.”

“You found something?” Maryilla whispers.

“No,” I confess, “I knocked on a lot of front doors…only I didn’t check out too many backrooms. But Sergeant Malory of the 36th District Precinct did. Hemmingway was setting up dummy fronts for the distribution of Red China narcotics. Just like you.”

There’s a moment of deadening silence that I quietly reason could go either way. I’m secretly glad when my margin of error works in my favor and no magic bullets start bouncing off the vaulted ceilings of this mausoleum. There’s no going back now. This is an all or nothing deal and my hand’s yet to be played.

“Hemmingway wasn’t your competition,” I reason to Karl, “He was your contact. But he was out of control. He started skimming off the top. You couldn’t have that. Not when what you wanted was right under his nose.”

“Be careful, Mr. Mars,” Karl warns, lazily redirecting my attentions to his gun, “You’re dangerously close to not being able to see past the tip of your own.”

“Do it,” I call his bluff, “It’d be a favor, letting the whole lot of you in for a heap of grief.”

“How’s that?”

“Sergeant Malory again. He knows what I know. He’s agreed to let me figure things out for myself and that’s bought us both some time. How much sand’s in the hour glass all depends on if I turn up with a couple of holes that God didn’t put there at birth.”

Karl reconsiders his options. I can tell he’s intrigued, only I don’t think he’s buying any of my ‘missing link’ scenario. So I resolve to tie up my loose ends before I become one.

“You fueled the bloodlust between Hemmingway and Don Alverez to get even by planting a small time operator in his midst and then treating the poor dumb bastard as a double agent,” I explain.

“What operator?” Maryilla suddenly interrupts.

“Muzzle it, angel,” I reason with firm conviction, “I wouldn’t like to, but I’ll deck you one in the chops if you crowd me.”

“I suppose you know the name of this ‘operator’?” Karl reasons.

“We both do,” I confess for the benefit of those not up to speed yet, “Frank Brody. I haven’t quite figured out whether it was a double cross or just an out and out swindle. But Brody died just the same. Hemmingway had his body paved under six feet of asphalt on that stretch of dead end where the late Carolyn Trent was supposed to unload me too. One problem; your angel of death became my angel of mercy. She couldn’t bring herself into the killing zone. She didn’t have it in her. But I did. And that left yet another loose end.”

“You’re not making sense,” Maryilla interrupts again.

“That’s twice, angel,” I say, lowering my voice and brow at the same time to connect with that ledge of fear rather than curiosity dangling before her eyes, “Mark me. There won’t be a number three.”

Sergei’s lost. So’s the cabbie. They’re not in our league. If this were Trivia Pursuit, I’d collect their pie pieces and ask them to leave with some cheapo parting gifts and a voucher for the all night buffet at Denny’s. But Karl’s begun to sweat – not profusely, but those thin cultured beads slowly forming at the fringe of his tired widow’s peak.

“You should have been more careful about Frank,” I tell him, “While you were using Tony Menendez as a buffer, dear ol’ Ton’ was getting ready to cut out on you with Hemmingway’s woman. He was also partnered up with Brody. Should’a checked Brody’s pockets more carefully. While you were trying to get the goods on them they already had plenty on you.”

Karl can’t contain his smug superiority any longer. It spreads like a thick fungus, moss-covered grin from ear to ear.

“You haven’t learned much in all these months, have you?” he muses.

“I didn’t realize there’d be a pop quiz at the end of it all,” I reason.

Only I’m the one who’s likely to get popped. Frank Brody was no fool. Arguably, he was an even lesser a dupe than yours truly. And Karl didn’t get rid of an inept accomplice when he had Brody killed. But he did murder his own double agent – the only guy with all the answers to questions it’s taken him this long to figure out on his own. Brody was using that notorious list as bait to nail the whole lot of thieves to a cross. Happy Easter, Karl. Only his eggs weren’t all in one basket.

“The thing I don’t figure is the Don,” I interrupt, “You and he going at it for a prize you already had in your possession seems like an awful waste of your time, and on the night you came to my rescue off the coast of Morocco you tossed caution and evidence to the wind…or waters, as it were. Any way, why kill him, or at least try to, at Heathrow? It can’t be just for looks…that is, how it’ll deflect from the bigger crime for the authorities?”

“You still think this is just about drugs?” Karl reasons, shaking his head with an authoritative disdain for my limited imagination, “This is about power. As for the Don…once we were like brothers.”

“You still are,” I remind him, “Cain and Abel.”

“You fools!” Maryilla hisses from behind.

She’s a game girl with hidden talents, I’ll give her that. While Karl and I have been comparing egos and Johnsons by candlelit, she’s managed to bring out a weapon of her own; a smart looking revolver pointed straight at Karl’s head.

“Drop it, luv!” the surrey driver whispers from behind.

“Go ahead,” Maryilla seethes, her eyes never leaving the delicate indentation mark between Karl’s eyes – the spot she’s taken dead aim at, “Shoot. Sergei!”

Another gun comes out, this one from Sergei’s pocket and casually aimed at the surrey driver’s head.

“Kill me,” Maryilla tempts the surrey driver, “You’ll be killing yourself.”

“Suppose we just forget the roulette and move on to a straight game of spin the bottle,” I quip in a slightly nervous attempt to defuse the situation, “Sober man wins. Drunkard goes home happy but empty handed nonetheless.”

“Define drunk,” Karl replies.

I’ve amused him yet again. It’s true. The cheese does stand alone. I’m the jester here and it’s a part I’m willing to play to walk away from this showdown. I’m not sure I can even spell ‘drunk’ at this point. My mind’s elsewhere – mainly on self preservation.

“How good’s your imagination?” I tease, forcing a reluctant half smile to my cheeks.

“Better than my bourbon,” he admits.

“Drugs are just a sideline,” Maryilla explains, “The real focus is on weapons.”

“I’ll bite,” I reason, my hand slowly sneaking down into my coat pocket, not for my gun but for the switchblade I brought along just in case, “What weapons?”

“In Iraq,” Maryilla hypothesizes, but in a tone that leads me to believe she’s been doing some extracurricular home schooling just for the occasion.

My suspicions get confirmed a moment later as Karl explains.

His consortium had been sneaking biological agents into an underground nuclear facility at the border between Iran and Iraq for nearly a decade. There ought to have been enough toxins amassed by now to decimate a few major cities in the U.S. and Europe, only a few of Osama’s boys became greedy and impatient in the meantime. A botched plan to kill millions in a more traditional way and the whole plan to hold the world hostage with the threat of making at least three quarters of it uninhabitable, while wiping out mass tracks of its population, and everything else officially went to hell. Just where the toxins ended up after troops started marching in remains a mystery to this day.

“Impressive, my dear,” Karl admits.
“My father did not raise fools,” Maryilla tells him, “You used the list as blackmail. Invested the monies from payments made into the Asian drug trade; then liquidated the overhead to build your arsenal in the Middle East.”

“A pity you know so much,” Karl suggests, his brow narrowing as he cocks his trigger, “Because it’s going to cost you.”

Maryilla lets out with a devil-may-care grin of utter satisfaction.

“I’m dead already. I have been for years.”

Maybe she is among the walking dead, I reason to myself as the first shots ring out, only I wasn’t planning on an English funeral.

Out comes my switchblade, quick and slipped into the palm of my hand, taking fair aim and letting Karl have it in his shoulder blade. His grip loosens on the gun but not before he manages to hit Maryilla in the jaw. I catch the back spray from the gaping hole in her cheek. The surrey driver gets it next, from Sergei this time, but not before he pops off a couple of rounds at random. I feel a pinch, but don’t immediately realize I’ve been hit. Reeling in place, I see Karl regain the grip on his piece with his good hand, pointing directly and firing into my chest.

The rest is in slo mo. I feel loose, hot and sweaty. Dizzy, but not so out of it that I can’t find my hand suddenly on the gun in my pocket and out before you can blink an eye. I’m not sure what I’m thinking, but my hand seems to have a life and will of its own. It’s like I’m watching it defend me.

I fire into Karl, hitting him in the throat, before pumping at least four slugs into Sergei – chest wounds mostly, though as I buckle and fold at the knee like a deflated squeeze box I think I catch myself unloading a round or two into the surrey driver’s unconscious body.

It’s only then that I realize I’m starting to cough up blood. I glance downward at myself and notice I’ve a fairly large patch of blood covering my chest. Tearing at the buttons on my shirt, I come across the sight of two puncture wounds just below my breast bone; feel hotter and sweatier than I ought to, as the last gasps of consciousness seep from my body.

THE END…

…not quite, though Eddie Mars will remain on hiatus until April 1, 2009.

Thanks to all for keeping up with this series.

@Nick Zegarac 2009 (all rights reserved).